WELCOME TO LUMEN PODCAST

A lumen is the basic unit for measuring brightness. It is a measure of the total quantity of visible light emitted by a source.  Lumen is a project that encompasses podcasts, blog writings, dharma talks, trainings, retreats, and workshops that integrate yoga asana, yoga philosophy, buddhist philosophy, Chinese 5-Element philosophy and diagnostic/meridian work from shiatsu, with life.

TRANSFORMING RESISTANCE TO STABILITY


TRANSFORMING RESISTANCE TO STABILITY:

In this podcast I talk about the opportunity inside of feeling resistance. How resistance can be a door opening instead of a door closing.

  • The role of the nervous system
  • The breath
  • Creating a bullet-proof nervous system
  • The process of training ourselves to allow and to relax into discomfort
  • Working with fear. The parts of ourselves… the part that is sort of hysterical and the other part that is present, open, curious about what will unfold and creative / working with what each moment brings. 
  • Developing willingness… not forcing or oppressing ourselves but being curious and open, willing to feel
  • Letting go of preferences
  • Getting out of the way of our life moving forward
  • The process

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OUR DIFFICULTIES


IN THIS PODCAST I TALK ABOUT:

– Our difficulties are our best teachers, but only if we know how to learn from them. 

– Wounding in Childhood, being disliked

– Conscious engagement with our pain

– The heart and the mind

– How to use experience as fodder for the work

– Taking the lessons from our practice out into life

– Resistance, preferences, acceptance, allowance, process & the pillars of practice

– Enduring the long journey

– Opening up to our true nature

 

NOTE: Near the end of the podcast I talk about two students who are confronting resistance to difficulty.  When I listen to myself, I heard irritation in my voice and I took the podcast down, worried they would hear that instead of the passion I have for the pivot point they are in. I took the podcast down to edit it and make it right but through great urging, from those who had a chance to listen, to put it back up, un-edited and raw, I am re-posting it without any edits. I want everyone who listens to know that the moment these two students are in is the moment I live for. It’s the pivot point. The tone in my voice is about that passion, it’s what gives meaning to my teaching. If you hear irritation or rushing in my voice, it’s my own irritation and rushing with myself within this exact moment that I am connecting to, it’s the work I have yet to do for myself. Their lesson is my own. I cherish these two as students, friends and fellow travelers who share a commitment and fire for self study that matches my own!

I am re-posting it, unedited and raw, largely because my acupuncturist urged me to put it out there saying that it’s my job, as a teacher, to be slightly irritating, that it can bring value, movement, and growth in places of stagnation, if students choose to take it that way. 

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OUR DIFFICULTIES ARE OUR GREATEST TEACHERS


IN THIS PODCAST I TALK ABOUT:

– Our difficulties are our best teachers, but only if we know how to learn from them. 

– Wounding in Childhood, being disliked

– Conscious engagement with our pain

– The heart and the mind

– How to use experience as fodder for the work

– Taking the lessons from our practice out into life

– Resistance, preferences, acceptance, allowance, process & the pillars of practice

– Enduring the long journey

– Opening up to our true nature

 

NOTE: Near the end of the podcast I talk about two students who are confronting resistance to difficulty.  When I listen to myself, I heard irritation in my voice and I took the podcast down, worried they would hear that instead of the passion I have for the pivot point they are in. I took the podcast down to edit it and make it right but through great urging, from those who had a chance to listen, to put it back up, un-edited and raw, I am re-posting it without any edits. I want everyone who listens to know that the moment these two students are in is the moment I live for. It’s the pivot point. The tone in my voice is about that passion, it’s what gives meaning to my teaching. If you hear irritation or rushing in my voice, it’s my own irritation and rushing with myself within this exact moment that I am connecting to, it’s the work I have yet to do for myself. Their lesson is my own. I cherish these two as students, friends and fellow travelers who share a commitment and fire for self study that matches my own!

I am re-posting it, unedited and raw, largely because my acupuncturist urged me to put it out there saying that it’s my job, as a teacher, to be slightly irritating, that it can bring value, movement, and growth in places of stagnation, if students choose to take it that way. 

Check out this episode!

OUR DIFFICULTIES ARE OUR BEST TEACHERS


IN THIS PODCAST I TALK ABOUT:

– Our difficulties are our best teachers, but only if we know how to learn from them. 

– Wounding in Childhood, being hated

– Conscious engagement with our pain

– The heart and the mind

– How to use experience as fodder for the work

– Taking the lessons from our practice out into life

– Resistance, preferences, acceptance, allowance, process & the pillars of practice

– Enduring the long journey

– Opening up to our true nature

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IT’S AN INSIDE JOB


DISEASE: IT’S AN INSIDE JOB.

In this podcast I talk about realizing that the locus of control is on the inside and how we can affect our health and life through emotions /  internal conditions. I explore how we can affect things like cancer, disease, and sickness through emotional processes by linking emotions to cellular health. I explore the importance of developing a practice and a process to develop a relationship with our emotions and the power of that. 

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PROCESS


In this Podcast: 

  1. Feelings have a beginning, middle, and an end.
  2. Exhaustion can come from a feeling that hasn’t been fully felt.
  3. Our body is our unconscious, any good practice will reveal what is there. 
  4. When the unconscious comes up to the surface it is an opportunity for healing.
  5. We often experience resistance to feeling this stuff and develop strategies to avoid it.
  6. We can also develop a process of being in engagement with the encounter and through that, heal and develop a sense of stability that is not dependent on the outer world of circumstances. This is a special type of strength.
  7. Stories to illustrate the transition from resistance into acceptance and allowance. What we resist persists.
  8. Developing a process and what a process is.

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CRISIS AS OPPORTUNITY

CRISIS AS OPPORTUNITY:

In this episode I talk about working with resistance in a way that can put us in touch with the feelings that keep us stuck and feeling dead in our lives. These feelings can keep us stuck in suffering or they can be a flood gate into coming alive. Learning to feel things we “don’t want to feel” can put us in touch with our truth and living in alignment with ourselves.

In the Chinese language the word for crisis has two meanings, one is crisis and one is opportunity.

PAIN AS A BRIDGE: WAKING UP

PAIN AS A BRIDGE: WAKING UP

  • Reacting and responding
  • What’s under the story
  • Inside and outside
  • Experiencing the pain
  • Becoming sensative
  • Resistance and Acceptance
  • Pema Chodron on Warrior Slogans
  • Ezra Bayda on the “Substitute Life”
  • Sealskin / Soulskin
  • Using pain to bring ourselves back home

A DEPENDABLE STABILITY

In this podcast I talk about developing the kind of strength that makes us consistent, dependable, and gives us integrity as human beings. It is the strength to keep on keeping on. It involves mastery as well as stability. You become like a rock or a mountain. You feel grounded in the world because you are grounded in your own self. A quality that indicates this in your life is the presence of rhythm, daily rhythm. The power that comes from this rhythmic existence is a kind of balance, harmony, and wholeness. It gives us the strength to handle both success and failure. It is the strength to balance and harmonize our individual needs with the needs of the group.

 

Note: The recording quality isn’t the best but I felt like what I said was so important to share, so here is the imperfection 🙂

THE PATH OF THE WARRIOR:

In this podcast I bring the work of Foundation Training for Posture together with Chogyam Trungpa’s work on The Sacred Path of the Warrior. Talking: Posture, Breath, Science, Emotions, and Being a Fully Human Being

  • Make a transformation or die
  • Vipassana 10-Day silent meditation retreat life lesson
  • Foundation Training with Eric Goodman
  • The impacts of compression on the body
  • Connecting posture to physical heath and emotions
  • The vagus nerve, lungs, digestive organs and more…
  • 70% of bodies waste products are eliminated through the lungs
  • The link between the lungs and the immune system, metabolism, and all the other organs
  • Breath-work patterns as a warm-up to practice, as a tool to change the state of the nervous system / process emotions, to get into prime state for learning, and create freedom physically in the body
  • Space for digestion, enteric nervous system, sense of well being
  • The Vagus nerve
  • The imbalance in our bodies
  • Coming out of compression
  • Re-define core (posterior chain)
  • The importance of sitting on the ground
  • Discovering basic goodness
  • Meditation: sitting on the ground, assuming a good posture, developing a sense of our spot… our place on this earth.
  • The journey

SPRING REBIRTH: THE SUPPLE LEOPARD


SPRING BIRTH / RE-BIRTH:

  1. FALL / METAL 
  2. WINTER DREAM
  3. SPRING RE-BIRTH
  4. THE ALCHEMIST COURSE
  5. YOU HAVE EVERYTHING YOU NEED WITHIN ARMS REACH
  6. TURNING BASE METALS TO GOLD
  7. TRANSFORMATION – WEAVE TOGETHER TO CREATE SOMETHING NEW
  8. THE PHOENIX RISING
  9. OLD WOMAN PORCUPINE GARMET MYTH
  10. RESILIENCE WITH PROCESS OF CREATION AND DESTRUCTION
  11. FOUNDATION TRAINING
  12. THE SUPPLE LEOPARD
  13. THE READY STATE
  14. CATCHING AN ANTELOPE

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THE ELEMENTS


IN THIS PODCAST: 

I cover the story of the 5 elements, what each element is associated with psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually, and how that relates to life.  I also cover traits of each element as they are found in ourselves and the people we know. This is very storyteller style with personal experience of living the elements. Yay! 

  • Water
  • Wood
  • Fire
  • Earth
  • Metal

 

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CHANGE & COMMITTMENT


CHANGE AND COMMITMENT: GOING BEYOND GOOD ENOUGH, VALUE, WORTH, RIGHT & WRONG

 

IN THIS PODCAST:

  • GIVING YOURSELF THE SPACE TO GO THROUGH CHANGE
  • INTROVERSION & EXTROVERSION
  • IT GETS SO BAD WE OPEN UP TO MAKING A CHANGE
  • CLINGING TO SAFETY BUT BEING DEAD INSIDE
  • VULNERABILITY
  • INITIAL STAGES OF MAKING A CHANGE
  • COMMITTMENT
  • WHY MAKE A COMMITMENT
  • THE ISSUES THAT ARISE WHEN WE COMMIT
  • EMPOWERMENT VERSES DISEMPOWERMENT
  • BELIEFS
  • WISDOM
  • METAL ELEMENT & LETTING GO
  • VICTIM-HOOD AND LETTING GO OF BEING A VICTIM
  • BOUNDARIES AND EARTH
  • TAKING RESPONSIBILITY 
  • HEALING
  • MOVING FORWARD
  • BELONGING TO OURSELVES, COMING OUT OF LONELINESS
  • STEPPING INTO THE UNKNOWN, MYSTERY, AND WILDERNESS

 

BOOKS I READ FROM: 

“Daring Greatly” by Brene Brown

“Conscious Loving” by Gay Hendricks & Kathlyn Hendricks

“Claim Your Power” by Mastin Kipp

“The Goddess Oracle” by Amy Sophia Marashinsky

“Braving the Wilderness” by Brene Brown

“Shadow Yoga” by Shandor Remete

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JEDI POWER


IN THIS PODCAST: 

  • Water Element
  • Wood Element
  • Comparison & Measuring Sticks
  • Monkey Experiment 
  • Giving Others Power
  • Inner Critic
  • Alignment with our Heart
  • Shame 
  • Sharing our story
  • Healing is Strength / Power
  • Developing Equanimity
  • Faith
  • Money
  • Abandonment & Existential Loneliness
  • Inadequacy and Unavailability
  • Oneness
  • Willingness to take risk
  • Opening up

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MOVING FORWARD: GETTING UN-STUCK


This podcast covers:

  • Knee Dislocation
  • The ways we get stuck
  • Getting clear on intention
  • Working with pain
  • Trusting yourself more than “experts”
  • Working with Despair
  • Recovery capacity greatly increases when moving forward with heart
  • “Demon Voices”
  • Recognizing it in ourself
  • Gaining capacity to work with bigger and bigger traumas
  • Trauma
  • Letting Go
  • Attachment / Aversion
  • The Leg Chakras
  • Taking The Leap
  • Opening to Mystery
  • Yoga Sutra 1.12

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LIFE TAKES PRACTICE: SUTRA 1.5


LIFE TAKES PRACTICE: SUTRA 1.5

 

THIS PODCAST COVERS: 

  • Sutra 1.5: vrtayah pancatayya klistaklishta
  • There are 5 states of mind, some create suffering and some are born of insight and they culminate in liberation
  • Definitions of each sanskrit word
  • Specific feelings that tell us we are either using detrimental or liberating thought patterns
  • The Five Klesas, from which all the detrimental mind states come from
  • The Five Hinderances from Buddhist Philosophy
  • Karma, it’s definition, generation, and it’s relationship to Klista thoughts
  • What the five types of thought are
  • A process from Byron Katie of learning to discriminate between detrimental thoughts and liberating thoughts
  • Learning to turn the detrimental thoughts that lead to suffering into moments of insight that lead to freedom
  • Shifting Patterns
  • Life Takes Practice

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MASTERY IN THE PLACES THAT SCARE YOU


This Track Covers:
– Getting to the Roots of Beliefs
– Equanimity
– Faith
– Shenpa, Getting Hooked and Our Ego
– Samskaras
– “Wrong” Mind Frame
– Leaning In, Instead of Avoiding Pain
– Using Triggers as a Doorway / An Opening
– Yoga Sutra 1.4
– Understanding Yoga Philosophy on how the mind works
– Beingness
– Identifying as Awareness or Identifying as the Ego and Sense Data
– Using Non-Violent Communication System to identify limiting beliefs
– Critic Verses Cheerleader
– Reflecting on Mastery
– Live Life as an Experiement

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GOING DOWN


A guided relaxation for learning to take yourself out of Fight or Flight and into Rest and Digest. At first, learning to pull yourself out of fear and aversion takes awhile, both with learning to relax but also with letting go of our attachment to being afraid. However, with practice, one can do this in seconds and one begins to realize all the clarity they can get from the relaxed state. This is a step in changing patterns, it just requires a willingness to be attentive to our patterns (when we should actually be afraid because we are in danger or when it is just the ego feeling threatened) and a willingness to let go of things that cause us suffering.

Its the beginning of being okay with not having control and not knowing.

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MAKING A LIFE A LIFE


This podcast is about living according to our core values and a lot of the challenges that come with that, as well as making a life out of the life we have been given.

  • Core Values
  • Alignment
  • Being Fully Ourselves
  • Fear
  • Obstacles On The Way
  • Taking Risks
  • Falling In Love
  • Exhaustion
  • Being OK With Whatever Life Gives Us
  • Making Lemonade from Lemons
  • Finding Treasure in the Trash
  • Clarifying

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PILGRIMAGE


Here’s to being unprofessional, not knowing, not being the expert… letting go of assumptions, fixed views, perceptions, judgements and ideas in favor of….going on a pilgrimage!

in China, there was a teacher named Dizang who had a student named Fayan. Dizang saw Fayan all dressed in his traveling clothes, with his straw sandals and his staff, and a pack on his back, and Dizang said, “Where are you going?” Fayan answered, “Around on a pilgrimage.” Dizang said, “What is the purpose of pilgrimage?” Fayan said, “I don’t know.” Dizang said, “Not knowing is nearest.”…. translated as not knowing is most intimate…not knowing is nearest and most intimate.

Here’s to getting off the plateau of stagnancy in the known and jumping into the galaxy of darkness as vast as outer space. So much for right or wrong.

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THE HEART


A class on backbends and heart openers! All about the heart!

-Philosophy
-Auspicious Place
-Individual Expression
-Universal Expression
-Purusa and Prakriti
-Development of the Heart Chakra
-Depression
-Chemical Changes from BackBending
-The Meridians in the Arms

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LEARNING TO STAY & YOGA SUTRA 1.3


This Podcast Covers:

  • The goals of Yoga
  • The distinction between Purusa and Prakriti
  • Readings from BKS Iyengar on Patanjali
  • Readings from Adyashanti on letting go of our ego structure
  • Sutra 1.3 on resting as awareness, as “being-ness”
  • Reading from Pema Chodron on Learning to Stay
  • Letting go of structures that create suffering
  • The Ego Cacoon
  • Getting Present

 

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IDENTIFY WITH FREEDOM


This Podcast Covers:

  • Sutra 1.2: Yoga Citta Vrtti Nirodah
  • The meaning of each individual sanskrit word in Sutra 1.2
  • The meaning of them all together
  • The definition of Yoga
  • The difference between Purusa and Prakriti
  • What the Citta is
  • What is Suffering
  • What is Acceptance
  • Reading from Nisargadatta on Pain
  • Reading from Adyashanti on Depth
  • Learning to work with pain instead of running from it
  • Learning to identify with freedom instead of the story of our pain
  • Equanimity: staying present with changes
  • Will, Willpower & Willingness
  • What it means to apply this to our lives
  • Quotes from Nelson Mandela, Freiderich Neitzche, Martha Graham, Nini Melvin, and poetry from Antonio Machado.

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FOMO AND EQUANIMITY


This Track Hits On:

  • Home
  • Fear of Missing Out (FOMO)/ Seperate-ness
  • Equanimity with desire, aversion, and neutral
  • The Monarch butterfly journey
  • Staying true to what’s most important within all the emotional ups and downs

The mantra: The opening invocation of the Isha Upanishad, a Sanskrit text that delves into the knowledge of the Self

Pronunciation: purnam adah purnam idam purnat purnam udachyate | purnasya purnam adaya purnam evavashishyate ||

Translation:

That is Whole. This is Whole.
The Whole arises from the Whole.
Having taken the Whole from the Whole,
Only the Whole remains.

(Translation by Zoë Slatoff-Ponté)

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ATHA: PRESENCE


IN THIS TRACK:

  • History of yoga
  • About the first yoga sutra
  • Using the philosophy to create presence with difficult emotions
  • Emotional landscape
  • Equanimity
  • Compassion
  • Developing the capacity to “be with”

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BREAKING PATTERNS


Intro to Backbends – Playing With Fire

  • Learning to use pain as a pivot point into freedom emotionally and physically.
  • Breaking Patterns of Suffering – Opening up to Freedom – How are we using our power? To create more suffering? OR are we using it in really nourishing ways? Ways that are about a life of meaning and purpose that is linked to our true nature? A LIFE OF DEEP HAPPINESS.
  1. Alter egos to promote freedom to say what you need to say (hehe!)
  2. Ego eradicator – (what’s one more humbling experience?!)
  3. Playing with fire (physical and emotional pros and cons)
  4. Developing witness, discernment, and technique for getting into body (about parasympathetic and sympathetic)
  5. What is a life of deep happiness for you, your nature?
  6. Yoga Sutra 1.34
  7. Breaking Patterns
  8. Using body as bridge – Out of ignorance into “clear perception”
  9. Story of Banana Tree – About the nature of the Ego
  10. 5 Things to watch out for – this is the game, excited for their arrival so one can do the work of re-alignment – breaking patterns
  11. Kindness – a poem from Naomi Shihab Nye
  12. A guided Relaxation
  13. Gayatri Mantra

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DHARMA AND PASSION


In this dharma talk, I talk about receiving THIS life, living in alignment with the heart. How earth –centered, grounded, integrated — gives us ease in transition and in letting go. I talk about transitioning out of old patterns of beliefs and thoughts that put us in conflict within ourselves. The conflict causes a dissipation of energy… and about coming out of conflict and coming back to living effortlessly… passionately.

Note: Passion and desire are different than each other. Desire is based on conflict and attachment. It’s wanting something that isn’t..it is fighting with what really is. Passion is effortless because it aligns with the heart and is based on what is.

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